KBTV

KBTV::The Meditation

Suddenly an ear-piercing sound of shattering glass sears into my consciousness, waking me from a sound sleep. Holy shit. I sit up in bed. It’s pitch black out. What time is it? I grab my Blackberry off the bedside table. 4:37 a.m. Ouch. My arm hurts from holding the umbrella yesterday during my shoot in the rain.

I swing my legs out of bed, throw on a robe and pad over in the direction from where I thought the breakage had originated. I peer outside. It looks like it’s going to storm, again. I cautiously slide open the glass door to the balcony. There in the left corner of the terrace lay a puddle of water and oddly shaped, freshly-shattered glass, dried stems and mud-tipped thorns, surrounded by a heap of decaying yellow rose petals.

Oh, that’s right. I’d put the vase out yesterday while we were shooting because it had begun to smell like a dead body. Ug, I can’t deal with this right now. I carefully slide the door shut, strip down and climb back into bed. Well, I’m up now – I might as well stay up. I open the drawer to my bedside table and pull out one of my morning meditation books:


JUNE 7: “If we believe our relationship or jobs are finite situations, then it becomes easy to feel stressed if things don’t go the way we planned in the time frame that we expected. The promotion doesn’t come in time, and now our careful career plan is off track. And relationship problems become huge, dramatic monsters – a series of issues – that eat away every space minute.

But if we believe that we are living in an intimate time frame, stress begins to dissipate. If I don’t get the promotion this week, maybe it will come next month and who knows, I may not even want it by then. Some of those big, monstrous relationship issues just sort themselves out if they’re not constantly held under a magnifying glass. And the moments spent with our loved ones become more enjoyable because we’re not continually working on the relationship.

When we behave on a finite scale, we can get so wrapped up in the details of a few moments that we cannot free ourselves to enjoy the next moment. When we start living on an infinite plane, it is easier to relax and let the universe carry us down the river, bringing us to all the lessons and joy that we need.”

God, help me relax and know that if a situation doesn’t come to pass today, eventually it will work itself out. And I’ve got all the time I need

It’s a wonderful life, I thought. What an amazing way to begin the day.

To be continued …

posted by INSIDE FAU @ 11:57 AM